IC CONTACT - DRIFT FLEET

[onlyanapple]

Hi, this is Anthony Crowley. Uh, I’m probably not in right now, or asleep, and busy, or something, but leave a message after the tone and I’ll get right back to you. Ciao. BeeeEEeeeEEeee.



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FROM: SUBJECT: FIE did you hear about the guy... FIE the past, the present, and the future walk into a bar... it was tense FIE did you know babies are cooked at womb temperature? JAYDEN Happy dawning WOLFE Ten months late for work FIE You're doing a grape job with your bar. FIE Your decor remains fruitiful. FIE You have a bluetiful establishment. FIE Thank blue for the service. ALLEN Okay Castiel's been in the fleet several days and you haven't turned up in my quarters drunk... ANDERS I just wanted you to know that you've ruined my happy home life. ALLEN Crowley ALLEN Crowley I have some really good news!! ALLEN I got a bottle of Varric's newest product NANAKO Crowley I hope you've been doing ok! FELIX This planet is miserable ALEX PRESENT COMBO BREAKER INO Meet me at Allen's room -- ALLEN Ino's birthday is the 23rd INO So not only did I get Allen TWO different dates that he ENJOYED... ALLEN I haven't seen any magazines appear in my room lately. INO Alright, I need you to help me with something. ALLEN Who's Adam? INO Alright, you win. We're dating. ALLEN You're okay, right? INO You are SO dead the next time I see you ALLEN CROWLEY I THINK INO'S FOUND ANOTHER GUY

TO: SUBJECT: SAM Got something I need you to do for me. NAMI Sam's in the garden and he's being weird ALLEN ACTION TEK ACTION INO Okay so Sudden pop quiz question ALLEN You've been on two whole dates now and haven't even reported back to me once. INO Someone stole your face

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Comments

[onlyanapple]

[And that was, of course, the crux of Crowley's problem. He wanted to belong to someone, no matter how often fate proved he couldn't have such a thing. He'd tried juggling two people once before, people he loved a great deal. It just ended in heartache and misery, and he inevitably ended up with no one. He didn't want to do that again.

He has no idea how to proceed. How to make it so he doesn't lose Felix, too. Fate seems uninterested in his efforts thus far. Take it slow, they leave. Take it fast, they leave. He has to do this on hope alone, and it makes him feel vulnerable. It's an all too mortal feeling, and he doesn't like it one bit.

He squeezes Felix's hand gently, thumb tracing over the skin of his hand. ]

Wouldn't consider you that, anyway. It's not tying you down if it's something you want.

[lord_wizard]

[Felix's hand flexes back in response, acknowledging as well as hiding the slight flinch in response to the words. He'd assumed that the way Crowley had chosen to operate in the past, that they were of similar mind on the weight that needed to be attached to sex, and had tried to insinuate that the burden was only Crowley's when it turned out it was really only his fidelity that was at issue. If that's what the demon meant at all. Felix had never placed a great importance on sex for the sake of sex but every possible meaning on it when it was part of something bigger, and somehow these two things had only ever been in conflict because of the other people involved. And while he'd tried in the past, it was difficult to alter that which always made him go looking to scratch whatever itch he felt had been neglected.]

That depends on your expectations. [He turns his head a little, afraid to break the contact, just enough to see Crowley's lips, though the perspective is blurred by his bad eye.]

You know what I am. [Not a question. The pejoratives float around in his mind at the mere mention.] I will probably disappoint you.

[onlyanapple]

[And honestly, Crowley understands. If it's one thing he gets it is the desires of others. It's what he knows without having to think about it. Temptation, and all that. Hew knows what Felix wants...what he needs. He wouldn't deny him that ever.

And so, he lets out a long exhale. ]

Felix, I've known you for far too long to be disappointed in you. I'm not expecting anything, nor am I your shackles.

[lord_wizard]

[It seemed hideously laughable from the outside that a demon would have a better handle on all of this, but neither of them were what the world thought they should be. That soothes some of the tumbling panic in his chest, though the fact that he's even suggested that Crowley might be a burden tears a small hole in his somewhere. He never knows when to keep his mouth shut.

Finally he does shift, moving his hand away to instead curl his arm over the demon's chest. He sits up just slightly, looking down at Crowley's face. His own is kind of a mess, but the following deserves the honesty.]

Let's not make promises, except for this. We both know that we have no control over how and when this will end, and when that happens...[He pauses, swallowing around knives]...there will be no regrets. No mourning.

[onlyanapple]

[Such is Crowley's nature. Not even he understands it completely. Or...you know, at all. He smiles a little and Felix. It's not one of his usual smirks, it's a little gentler, certainly softer. It's the kind of smile that reminds a person that once upon a time he was something else entirely. ]

Can't promise the no mourning thing, you know me too well enough for that, Felix. But as for no regrets? I'm sure we can manage that, between us.

[lord_wizard]

[The smile makes some of the ache drift away, basking in the warmth that Crowley spends so much time denying. He lets out another frail laugh and smiles in return, despite the tears cooling on his cheeks]

Wishful thinking on my part. [He knows that's true. He couldn't have stopped himself from mourning, either.] But, yes, that part I can do. Starting now.

[Another kiss, this time, just a light one. This time to seal the agreement.] For now...I'm here.

[Whether that means the bed, the room, or something greater does seem to matter much in the scheme of things at the moment. Felix shifts once more, slipping more comfortably to lay on his side, moulded to the lines of Crowley's body as much as he possibly can. The strangest part is that he feels safer than he can ever remember, despite the tenuousness of everything. Maybe that was because he has little else left to hide.]

[onlyanapple]

Hmm I did notice.

[Just a little levity, something to show that though things have changed, they also...haven't. They are still them, and nothing can really change that.

He settles into the bed, into just lying here, comfortable, a weight off his shoulders. The dread is still there, but it's been made a little less. He can, at least for now, relax a little. His fingers move to thread absently through Felix's hair, an attempt at a comforting gesture. ]