[He can't change his role in the universe. God made it that way. He's still bitter sometimes, but he knows he can't fix it. Just move forward. Be glad for what he has here, now. Away from home.
He turns his head in Felix's direction, serpentine eyes locking on him. There's no lazy smirk here, though. No idle brushing off of things that are unspoken, pretending they are obvious and don't need light shone on them. Because this time...it's important this isn't brushed under the rug.]
No. Atroma didn't put those words into my mouth. [A pause, a hesitation. ] Not then, not now.
[He's said it so few times, and he's honestly terrified of it now. It means a black mark. The beginning of the end. The opening fate needs to sweep in and take what's precious to him away. To remove any sense of happiness he has as soon as he admits it's there. He knows how this game goes and he doesn't want to lose it again. To go through all that heartbreak all over.
But the words come out anyway. Unbidden, unrestrained. It's the truth, and as real as the fear is, it's still not as great as Felix living here for however long, then leaving anyway - never hearing them. Never being aware of them. It may spell doom for the demon (that much he's sure, Paradisa taught him that lesson and taught it HARD) but it would be cruel to Felix to do anything else. If there's one thing Felix hasn't had enough of in his life, it's this.]
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[He can't change his role in the universe. God made it that way. He's still bitter sometimes, but he knows he can't fix it. Just move forward. Be glad for what he has here, now. Away from home.
He turns his head in Felix's direction, serpentine eyes locking on him. There's no lazy smirk here, though. No idle brushing off of things that are unspoken, pretending they are obvious and don't need light shone on them. Because this time...it's important this isn't brushed under the rug.]
No. Atroma didn't put those words into my mouth. [A pause, a hesitation. ] Not then, not now.
[He's said it so few times, and he's honestly terrified of it now. It means a black mark. The beginning of the end. The opening fate needs to sweep in and take what's precious to him away. To remove any sense of happiness he has as soon as he admits it's there. He knows how this game goes and he doesn't want to lose it again. To go through all that heartbreak all over.
But the words come out anyway. Unbidden, unrestrained. It's the truth, and as real as the fear is, it's still not as great as Felix living here for however long, then leaving anyway - never hearing them. Never being aware of them. It may spell doom for the demon (that much he's sure, Paradisa taught him that lesson and taught it HARD) but it would be cruel to Felix to do anything else. If there's one thing Felix hasn't had enough of in his life, it's this.]
Because I do, you know. Love you.