[He understands that sentiment all too well, and the reason why tumbles out of his mouth before he can stop himself.]
I was exiled...before I arrived at the castle.
[Meaning, you know, he wasn't looking forward to his future either.
And that was just the thing, wasn't it? Because what was the point of living if you couldn't enjoy the parts that mattered? Loss was inevitable in life. Things were finite. At least, for any human. As far as he knew Crowley was eternal, and maybe that should have bothered him, but it never had. The same way Crowley had seemed to see through him from the beginning and hadn't cared. In some cases, almost literally, as the nightmare from the previous month proved.]
Crowley...[He lifts his head a little so he can finally look at the demon]...about what you said to me...last month...
[He's talking mostly about what occurred in his own calibration; something he could have gone on ignoring but the need to know why is eating at him, as much as he needs to know if Crowley remembers it at all]
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I was exiled...before I arrived at the castle.
[Meaning, you know, he wasn't looking forward to his future either.
And that was just the thing, wasn't it? Because what was the point of living if you couldn't enjoy the parts that mattered? Loss was inevitable in life. Things were finite. At least, for any human. As far as he knew Crowley was eternal, and maybe that should have bothered him, but it never had. The same way Crowley had seemed to see through him from the beginning and hadn't cared. In some cases, almost literally, as the nightmare from the previous month proved.]
Crowley...[He lifts his head a little so he can finally look at the demon]...about what you said to me...last month...
[He's talking mostly about what occurred in his own calibration; something he could have gone on ignoring but the need to know why is eating at him, as much as he needs to know if Crowley remembers it at all]